Friday, July 27, 2007

Wampanoag Casino

Tomorrow there's a HUUUGE special town meeting for the town to vote
on allowing or not allowing the Mashpee Wampanoags to build the
state's first casino. It will be interesting to say the least.
I think the outcome will be in favor of it. While I have looked at
both sides of the coin I haven't looked enough into it to make an
educated decision, but my gut says they should go for it.
There are pros and cons in everything in life, but I think this would
benefit the town more than it would hurt it, as long as both sides
uphold their respective ends of the bargain.
There was talk that they would just go ahead and do it anyway if the
town vote no. At first I said I didn't think they could but now I'm
thinking that they can. So the town might as well go for it and be
"in on it". Maybe then they/we won't be broke all the time.
From the hip again, I hope it goes through.

Here's some links to the pro and con web sites:
PRO:    http://www.casino-friend.com/
CON:    http://casinofacts.org/

Comment on what you think if you'd like!



Saturday, July 14, 2007

Nothing Else Matters

Just a tune to listen to while you read the previous blog.

Friday, July 13, 2007

~ Lost Heritage ~

Ah, to feel a great sense of pride for one's heritage...an ancestry you've been told of since childhood, and you just knew it was true. It had to be. How could it not be, when you could actually feel it? We were told to be proud. I didn't have much first hand knowledge of the old ones or the old ways - still don't - was never taught, yet whenever I saw or heard or smelled anything related to them, I felt a connection - still do.
But alas, I can't prove it's there. Genealogy research done by relatives reaches dead-ends. Years ago, it was not a good ethnicity to be. Therefore, quite often it was "hidden" and kept from the records. This may be what happened.
I had pretty much given up hope, when an organization took me in based on this heritage they knew I have, and collected my dues, and then I felt it was all finally real. We were very excited - myself, my kids, my relatives. We all were very proud.
Then we were told we couldn't tell people on a large scale, such as on a web site, about our descent. We were accused of trying to use our heritage to 'cash in' because I had some home-made ethnic jewelry listed on ebay, which was linked from my web site where I told about myself and mentioned my heritage. We were accused of using another much larger and more legitimate organization to cash in, by displaying a quote by a high ranking member of it, a quote we were proud of, prominently on one of our web sites. The quote was found on the WWW and was available for anyone to use. They were great words of wisdom. That web site had nothing for sale. It did have a link to my web site though, so all these web sites were grouped together and considered as one. I think I even almost owned eBay for a while there. This family web site was to be shut down.
I never wanted to cash in on my heritage. I don't care about that. I was born poor and I'll most likely die poor. I just wanted the honor of being able to say what I was, with the truth to back me up. I just wanted to be proud. The truth may still be out there, but I don't have it. I have a feeling even those who claimed to have it were lying.
Some relatives formally left the organization because of this. I didn't. However I no longer received any mailings or bills for dues or any other kind of correspondence, ever again...so I guess I was informally kicked out. I guess I was too proud.
For awhile afterwards, I displayed my web site with just a black page and Metallica's "Nothing Else Matters" playing on it. Then later, I added the lyrics to the song.
So close no matter how far  
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
So close no matter how far
It couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters
Words and Music by James Hetfield and Lars Ulrich
Copyright 1991 Creeping Death Music (ASCAP)
International Copyright Secured All Rights Reserved
Eventually I started rebuilding my site. It's starting to look pretty good...a bit boring. I won't mention my heritage on it though. Ohhh no. I really don't think I could get in trouble for it. I'm just no longer proud. I truly hope someday I will be again. It hurts not to be.
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My friend Caz, from Australia,
had this gif made for me.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

A picture I made...


I'm sure it's the first of many like this. Been wanting to do something like this for quite awhile, but this still isn't exactly what I've had in mind...close though. BTW do you see the skull "on the tree" at about my lower chest level?