Winter Wonderland

Merry Christmas!

Marconi Beach - Wellfleet, Cape Cod, MA

Just testing the capability of posting pictures directly from Photobucket. It definitely works but the picture isn't resized so I have to make sure I resize it first or - like I did in this case - tweak the html so it displays smaller and link to the full size (which I did but didn't test yet).

Brrrrrrrr.

Oh my, it's cold. I truly do want to get used to it...and I will very quickly. I'll be forced to. It's snowing, and if it doesn't knock that shit off I'll be getting used to it with a snow shovel in my hand. I'm just not ready for that yet.
I do believe SOME humans probably did hibernate. And I believe I am a descendant of that unique group of humans that did. I can feel my body trying to shut down and it's unnatural to resist. I should go to sleep until spring arrives. Imagine the weight I'd lose too (note: THAT'S why I've been bulking up...it's for hibernation!). It can't be good for my body to resist this. No wonder I'm not well.
Woke up this morning and my lungs felt like they needed more time to wake up. Just got short of breath very quickly...trip down the stairs for my coffee...huff...puff. Back up the stairs...huff..puff...etc. Eventually it improved quite a bit, but I'm still coughing. I haven't done much at all today. In fact I feel like I wasted the whole weekend. Two things I was going to do today and I just couldn't get out the door. I even finally got dressed (this afternoon) and that was as far as I got. I wanted to go to a parade in Taunton with some friends, some were in it and some were watching. And I wanted to visit my father this evening. Well at least I worked overtime yesterday. I need the money so that was good.

My Mom's new dog Jezebel

So that little bout with depression the other day...I dunno what set it off but I guess it was anxiety from money, my insecurity, health worries, just a combination of a bunch of little things. I was much better the next day, so I dunno. Guess when ya least expect it...

Well, I guess I'll wrap this up for now. It's been so long (until a few days ago) since I blogged I think people stopped checking for new ones. I don't know if it would be tacky to let people know there's new ones...or just let them eventually realize it. Oh another dilemma.
OK so I send this by email but then I fix it up at the site...kind of weird but for some reason it seems like a good way to do it. My reason for mentioning it is because I don't remember if I can insert the picture(s) here or if I have to do it at the site. Last time I did it there but not sure if I had to or not. OK well anyway...ttfn

Smile for the camera.

Short Blog

I've done so well for so long with no meds, that I thought I was past all this depression shit. I dunno why, but today I've hit highs and lows I haven't seen in many months. I feel like crawling back under the rock I lived under for several years. But no, that would be a step backward...must keep moving forward. I'm sure this too will pass and I'll be ok again.
I'm sitting here speculating and theorizing on what could be causing it, but I'm not going to bother typing it all out. It doesn't matter anyway. Hopefully it'll be history by tomorrow.
This Saturday is the beginning of the "overtime season". That will surely help me pay some of the bills I've racked up in the past few months. My main time will be Saturday mornings , so I can still do Saturday night investigations when they come up. There will be OT on occasional Sunday afternoons too.
I haven't blogged in quite a while and I realize it's very random shit. Sorry. LOL.
I hope everybody (in the US) had a great Thanksgiving last week. Mine was good. And I hope everyone (in the world!) has a very Merry Christmas. That's right I said Merry Christmas. If by chance you don't celebrate that, then at least enjoy the time off, and the holiday that you DO celebrate. It's all good. Happy Every-fkn-thing! lol
I'll try to do this more often. TTFN.

Sanitarium

Odds and Ends

Whew! I've been keeping busy this week...somewhat...busy for me anyway. I had to go back to Wal Mart - yes the one I said I'd never go to again, and get water conditioner for the pond. Some plants diverted water out of the filter so when I got back from Wal Mart with fish food yesterday and went to feed them the pond was nearly empty. I added some water right then but had no dechlorinator so I didn't dare add too much. Luckily all the fish seemed to have made it to the deep section - I don't see any floaters. Of course, and as always, I forgot the hose was running and overflowed the pond. Poor fish go from one extreme to the other with me.
Yesterday I had to go to Wal Mart for a couple things and then visit and deliver a CD and DVD from an investigation. Then when I got home and was running late partly because of the pond situation, I got a last minute call that Jason needed a ride home. Later I noticed I had a missed call when he'd tried to call earlier so I guess he's excused for calling so late. But NOT for not leaving a message. lol.
Tuesday...I have to remember. I can't think of it right now. Monday I helped Darlene with her van, a light was out. Then I had an appointment with the lung doctor. We time these appointments so that I can go right from there (Brockton) to work in the next town over. After he said "see you in six months" I told him I had a tough summer with breathing, and I mentioned that I can't walk and talk at the same time, so he set me up with another breathing test. I said I figured it was normal but wasn't sure if it was getting worse. He said I should be able to walk and talk at the same time. I said, I have to stop and catch my breath.
What was Tuesday? Damn, I can't think of it...maybe I slept the day away. lol. Naaaah. I dunno. I'll have to get back to ya.
That is all for now. Have a good day folks.